Alex has suffered serious loss and life changes. And Sebastian knows all about it. She has had a crush on him for years, but he has always kept her at arm's length. 

He has secrets and guilt that eats at him and keeps him from going after what he wants. But even the strongest man can have moments of weakness. Their pasts are twisted together. Their present keeps bringing them together, but just enough to keep them hurting and requiring resistance. There are still layers of secrets and guilt creating a barrier that he feels he cannot cross. But until they face everything, there is no chance either will get what they both really want...or be able to move forward towards the future.

They are both broken and damaged and are in the process of being put back together. But it seems they are both each other's biggest regret as well as possibly the best chance of hope and healing. In some ways they have each saved the other. And in other ways they broke each other down. But now as the secrets are laid bare will they be able to keep the other from going under?

I really liked Sebastian. I felt for him as he struggled with the guilt of his mistakes from the past and did not feel worthy of Alex. But he was so protective, caring, and in need of redemption. And Alex was tough and a survivor. But she had so many lingering questions and hurts that stuck with her in addition to the other scars from her past. But she was also insecure and felt inferior as well. And they had a tendency to inadvertently feed into the other's lack of self worth or insecurities. There were plenty of outside influences and secrets affecting them and shaping their decisions. But all along, I kept hoping that once everything was out in the open, they could find forgiveness and healing.

I love it when there are surprise cameos from other series. And all of the friends from this series are also back and I enjoyed catching up with them. This had the camaraderie and fun that I have come to enjoy with this series, but also had some emotional and tragic subject matter. It also had some mystery as to what really happened in the past. It was gradually revealed throughout and added tension and drama into the present. This is a story about loss, love, forgiveness, redemption, hope, and healing. 

I am looking forward to Keegan's book since his story has been ongoing, and I am also hoping Mason is coming after that. He and Bailey drive me crazy!

Sebastian Crowe has regrets. Had he met Alexandra DeLuca today, he would pursue her no questions asked. But he met her five years ago when he was a different person, when he didn’t deserve anyone as good as she. Even though he has changed his choices, he still knows she isn’t for him, no matter how much he may be attracted to her.

Alexandra is back after two years away. She knows she doesn’t want to be a mechanic forever, so moving home in order to go to college seems the best course of action. But returning also puts her near Sebastian once again, and the crush she held in high school returns as she gets to know the new Sebastian.

They each have secrets and their own grief and regret to deal with. What surprised me was what a tangled mess the secrets were, and how much they each had to learn about what they thought they knew. The secrets fed the challenges each character must face, and at times seemed to amplify the insecurities each held tightly.

As they slowly begin to rely on each other, putting aside the time apart, the tension of the secrets they hide kept things interesting. With each new bit of information I couldn’t help but hope things wouldn’t shake down the way they appeared to be. I was also surprised by the direction several of the secrets led, as the story took on a bit of suspense about what was going on in Alex’s sister’s life at the time of her death.

Each of these characters were likeable and intriguing. Sebastian’s past was a cloud that hovered over him, providing him with so much guilt that shadowed him even years later. I loved the lengths he tried to go in order to protect Alexandra from his past and the connection to her own pain.

Once again this series has pulled me into the family aspect of the team. I love the way they support each other despite mistakes and forgive without prejudice when they learn the darkest secrets of their own. Keegan, Mason, and Bailey have had portions of their stories play out in the background of the series, and I can’t wait to see inside each of their heads in their own stories.

I was gifted a copy in exchange for an honest review.

“At least then I’d know how you taste.”

THE BLACKHAWK BOYS, an edgy, sexy sports romance series from 

New York Times bestseller Lexi Ryan. 

Football. Secrets. Lies. Passion. These boys don’t play fair. 

Which Blackhawk Boy will steal your heart?

Once, the only thing that mattered to me was football—training, playing, and earning my place on the best team at every level. I had it all, and I threw it away with a semester of drugs, alcohol, and pissing off anyone who tried to stop me. Now I’m suspended from the team, on house arrest, and forced to spend a semester at home to get my shit together. The cherry on my fuckup sundae? Sleeping in the room next to mine is my best friend’s girl, Mia Mendez—the only woman I’ve ever loved and a reminder of everything I regret.

I’m not sure if having Mia so close will be heaven or hell. She’s off-limits—and not just because she’s working for my dad. Her heart belongs to someone else. But since the accident that killed her brother and changed everything, she walks around like a zombie, shutting out her friends and ignoring her dreams. We’re both broken, numb, and stuck in limbo.

Until I break my own rules and touch her. 

Until she saves me from my nightmares by climbing into my bed. 

Until the only thing I want more than having Mia for myself is to protect her from the truth. 

I can’t rewrite the past, but I refuse to leave her heart in the hands of fate. For this girl, I’d climb into the sky and rearrange the stars.