It feels like we’ve been waiting so long for Ramsey from Portland U to meet his match and he certainly did in Nate. Ramsey is now a professional hockey player in Buffalo, but he’s on injured reserve so he’s hanging out in Toronto with his best friend, Wes, but he’s lost without hockey.  Nate is a Captain for the Toronto Thunder pro football team. 

Ramsey is an enigma full of contradictions over strong walls covering this soft core of vulnerability that he doesn’t show many people. His best friends Wes and Brody were the closest but even they don’t know everything about him. He’s been in self protection mode for so long that his chameleon façade has just been who people think he is.

Their initial meeting was just this connection that they didn’t expect, didn’t actually want, and it scared them both. They both reacted differently, but it left a mark and neither of them could stop thinking about it. 

So when they meet again, there’s this tension and unresolved feelings and spark between them that they can’t deny no matter how hard they try. Nate is broody and has up all his guards and tries to avoid Ramsey because he doesn’t want to get hurt. But there’s something about Nate that can just truly see inside Ramsey, and Ramsey knows it. And it just makes Ramsey want to uncharacteristically garner Nate‘s attention. To the point that Ramsey comes up with a plan to make nice and get everybody off their back by staging a "fake casual relationship". Well, once these guys start to let their walls down and actually spend time together, their chemistry and perceptviness regarding each other deepens. They don't really let the other get away with anything. And it’s not long before fake becomes more real physically and emotionally, but they both have their fears and insecurities and their friends also keep reminding them about how complicated their lives are and the potential for messiness. 

It’s fun watching Ramsey. just try to do normal dating things because he’s never done that and he’s just so adorable. And Nate’s just such a good guy. He tries to take care of his teammates and be a good friend and he wants Ramsey to want more, but he’s so scared of getting hurt. This is a whole different experience for Ramsey and he is just  trying to feel his way through it. I loved seeing these two just kind of stumble into  more real and honest versions of themselves with each other.

Falling for my girlfriend’s twin brother wasn’t what I had in mind when I hired him to be my son’s nanny.

Working on my family’s cattle ranch, the hours are long, and sometimes unpredictable, so when my regular nanny quits, leaving me in a pinch, I have to think fast.

In walks Ash Tudor.

My opposite in almost every way.

He’s cheerful and bubbly, has horrible taste in music, and does yoga in my yard almost every morning in the tightest shorts I’ve ever seen.

Not that I’m looking.

But it’s none of those things that have me scratching my head and second guessing everything I thought I knew about myself.

No… it’s the fact that he’s a him and I can’t seem to keep my eyes away, no matter how confusing that may be.

I’m nearly thirty, and never once have I looked at another man the way I catch myself looking at him.

The feelings and urges growing inside of me make no sense, and then when he gets a special delivery to the house of items he plans to use on himself, I can’t stop imagining him doing just that… Or imagining me using them on him.

But confusion and curiosity aside, I can’t fall into bed with my son’s nanny.

Doing so would be reckless and irresponsible.

No matter how tempting it may be.