Blog Tour and Giveaway: Fading: E.K. Blair

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Can a guilty conscience keep wounds from healing?

Fine arts major, Candace Parker, grew up with a mother who thinks image is everything, and her daughter’s perfection will never be good enough. About to graduate college and pursue her dreams of becoming a professional ballerina, Candace decides it’s time to let go and have a little fun. But fun is short-lived when a brutal attack leaves her completely shattered.

The memories that consume and torment Candace are starting to destroy her when she meets Ryan Campbell, a successful bar owner. He feels instantly connected and tries to show her that hope is worth fighting for. But is Ryan harboring his own demons? As walls slowly begin to chip away, the secrets that are held within start to become painful burdens.

At what point do secrets become lies?

(17+) This book contains mature subject matter that is not suitable for those under the age of 17.

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Candace in the Rain

As I drive, reality slowly starts creeping back in, and the weight in my chest returns. The thunder continues to rumble, and I feel like the weather fits my mood perfectly. The clouds open, and the rain begins to crash down on my windshield. I turn my wipers on high, but I struggle to see the road ahead. I pull into one of the empty parking lots on campus to wait until the rain lightens up. While sitting in the car, I listen to the rain beating violently against the steel.
            For some reason, I get the urge to get out of my car. I open the door and step out into the rain. Closing the door, I lean against the car, and within seconds, I’m drenched. The beating of the raindrops against my delicate skin feels good, almost painful in a way—but good. I lean my head back and feel the pellets as they strike my face. I enjoy the biting sensation. With my eyes closed, I just stand there, wishing I could live here, in this vacant lot, alone, focusing on nothing more than the stinging pleasure of the storm as it batters me. Knowing that this will soon end, that the sun is lingering behind the clouds and I will be faced with the hell that is my life, my body slides down the side of my car, and I sit in a puddle of water on the dirty ground and cry.
            Why didn’t I fight more?

Candace had good friends, was a talented ballet student, and was looking forward to the future. But one night her life was changed forever. The previously vibrant, happy girl now felt lost, insecure, scared, and put up walls. She got closer to some friends, but lost others and unfortunately started losing herself.

I sit here, on the bottom of the shower, and everything I know about myself, everything I love, everything I am begins to fade.

She already had issues of self worth due to never being able to please her parents, but this event changed her whole outlook on the world. She was plagued with anxiety, nightmares, and pain. She was broken, depressed, angry, sad, humiliated, and emotional. And only her friend Jase and his boyfriend Mark know what happened  and seemed to be able to help her at all. I adored Jase and Mark. They were completely sweet, supportive and brotherly towards her. Her friends were her surrogate family in lieu of her demanding parents. But not sharing with her room mate Kimber became another issue of sadness and guilt for her. I found myself wishing that she would let her in. 

But then she met Mark's friend, Ryan and he is attentive, patient, and caring. He had his own problems in his past and his own coping mechanisms, but treated Candace differently. He pushed her enough to slowly break down walls, but not enough to overstep. He was a little older, more mature, and understood her wariness and the need to move slowly. They had a fun rapport and good chemistry. He was really good for her and she began to slowly start living again. But she still kept her secrets and he had his own...And his secret might just make him lose her forever. 

"They were only there to distract me, but when I saw you, you faded everything I needed distracting from."
"Did you love any of them?"
"No...I've only ever loved you."

"Cling to me. Love me enough to need me."

It was a story of a girl  navigating her way through pain, learning  forgiveness, letting go and moving forward. Healing takes time, effort, support, and love. Fortunately, Candace had that from her three men, even as she was pushing some people away. 

"I'm fading...He took all my light, and I've been fading ever since."
"You're not fading. I won't let you."

This book took on tough subject matter and E.K. Blair did not sugar coat it. The trauma, fear, and emotions were real and heart felt. I was hooked in the prologue, but I will admit that I had trouble staying involved with the story a few times. It was a little longer than some of the current books so at times I was waiting to get to another crucial part. But as it went on I got more invested in Candace and Ryan's building relationship as well as Candace's journey to heal herself. By the end, I was holding my breath hoping that there could be a happy resolution for her. It was heartbreaking to see Candace's pain all come to the surface. And it was a long process to even begin to recover. No matter how much support someone has, it means nothing if they cannot love themself. But sometimes when a person can get past the pain and begin to heal, it makes the victories that much sweeter. 

Thanks to EK Blair for providing me with a review copy of this book in exchange for an honest review

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1 comment:

  1. OMG!! Wasn't this SOOOO good! Makes me long for the Ballet! I already bought my season tickets!! Loved your review!! Eeeep!


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