The moment I'd seen him, even though I hadn't wanted to admit it, I'd known that I would never survive him.

This book is about Chloe and Logan's longtime best friend, Amber, and Drake's band mate, Adam. We head back four years ago and see how Amber gets her heart broken before college and vows not to be vulnerable again and then move onto them during their college years that was also covered in the other books in the series, but this time it is all in Amber's point of view. 

We go through the whole Chloe, Drake, Logan triangle drama again through Amber's eyes. But we also see Amber trying to move on after her her heartbreak. Amber and Drake's band mate Adam develop a spark that eventually leads to a hook up and friends with benefits situation. But both are anti-relationship or think they need to be. They both try to live in the land of denial about what they really want, need, and feel.

"Love isn't a happily ever after...It's a death sentence."
"It depends on how you look at it. Some people, like them, need it. Some people, like me...well, I'm better off without it."

Lines get blurred, jealousy, anger, separations, confusion, pain and heartbreak swirl around them until it reaches a point of no return. Things are said and done that cannot be taken back. 

As more time passes, Amber feels left behind and lost as Chloe and Logan are happy with their loves and lives in LA. The band and Adam are enjoying success in LA as well. She had a hard time coping with her feelings of loss and tries anything she can to numb the pain and fill the void. But when Amber and Adam are brought back together, their emotions still run hot and cold. They still push and pull.

But when something important makes them have to communicate, will they be pulled closer together or pushed farther apart?

I will admit that I had a hard time connecting with Amber and Adam at times even though I have been interested in their relationship throughout the other books in the series. I am not sure if it is because it was all in Amber's point of view and I really missed not getting Adam's. I would have liked to really feel and understand what was going on with him especially at times of his erratic behavior. I liked them half the time and the other times I wanted to smack them for their behavior and how they hurt each other.  They both frustrated me and made me so angry. Seriously, they were both so in denial, so clueless, and such hypocrites at times. The lashing out, the insults, the avoidance, the fooling around, and disregard for the other's feelings did not endear them to me. But I do understand it was part of their protective mechanisms and coping strategies. They both had such difficulty admitting or expressing their true feelings and fear often kept them locked down.

Getting attached to someone like Adam was emotional suicide. He didn't do relationships or feelings. 

"You scare the sh*t out of me. You always have. The moment I laid eyes on you, I knew there was something different about you. I knew you'd change everything for me."

When we saw beneath Adam's closed off a-hole facade, I liked him. He had deep hurts and was terrified of getting hurt again. He was inconsistent and easily triggered. He struck out and he really could make some rude comments, but he could also be sweet and funny at times too. And Amber was no angel. She made some really poor decisions. They really had the potential to bring out the best and worst in each other. They could both be self destructive, cruel, give mixed signals, and impose double standards. Sometimes I wanted to shake them, sometimes lock them in  a room together, and other times tell them to just stay far away from each other since they were too toxic. It was quite the roller coaster for these two.

Some of the book revisited previous events but it was in Amber's different point of view, and we did get her take and insights into the situation. It was full of drama, angst, and volatile emotions. But I will admit that I felt the end was a bit rushed and resolved pretty fast after all of the previous years of drama. But I was glad to finally know their whole story and see a bit into their future. 

I was gifted a copy in exchange for an honest review.

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K.A. Robinson is twenty-four years old and lives in a small town in West Virginia with her husband and toddler son. She is the New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of The Torn Series, The Ties Series, Breaking Alexandria, Taming Alec, and Deception. When she’s not writing, she loves to read books that usually have zombies in them. She is addicted to rock music and coffee, mainly Starbucks and Caribou Coffee.